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When someone is born, people around him/her are Happy and Laugh
and when someone is dead people around him/her will Sad and Cry. My dearest ah
kong just passed away peacefully last week.

I went to my ah kong house after company outing. When I
reach there I saw my uncle and aunty was helping my ah kong to change cloths. I
call him but he didn’t answer me, then I saw tears at my aunty and uncle
eyes….. my gi ku then pull me a side and say “if you see ah kong stop breathing
remember don’t cry and call ah kong let him go peacefully.” My eyes start
watering and I was stun there. I look at my uncle and aunty, then walk beside
ah kong and call him …… I really sad when I know he is leaving us.

Gi ku and Sa ku start phone the rest to come to ah kong
house and I also call my mummy faster come to ah kong house. My tears start
dropping when I see my ah mah help to comb ah kong hair, touch his face,
whispering to him and stare at him. Although ah kong was closed his eyes and
didn’t answer anyone of us when we call him but….. we saw tears drop from his
eyes.

We all start pray for ah kong so he can follow the Buddha to
heaven. My aunties, uncles and cousin start crying……. and my tears also drop
like rain…… then I look at ah mah, she just sit a side… she didn’t say anything……she
just look at ah kong then walk to ah kong and touch his face again. I know ah
mah is more sad than everyone because we all know that they very sayang each
others….

The last time I spoke to him was 2 weeks ago when he
admitted to hospital due to the fucking haze that cause by our neighbor
country. He tell me a lot of stories and things, then he was saying the doctor
told him that his lung is older than his age so he has difficult to breath when
the haze attack. He told me that he tries to let go and follow the Buddha to
heaven, but the Buddha do not want to accept him yet. After hear this I told
him “mai luan chu kong wa lah ah kong. Lu eh boh su eh” then he added that he
can think in this way because he already 80years old and we young people cannot
think in this way no matter what happen also have to be strong.

Ah kong, We will remember what you have told us. We will not
quarrel and we will not give up easily. We will always miss you ah
kong………….

http://mp1.vvpo.cn/…lhm-mp3/2007-7/OK/9.wma

歌曲：就让这首歌
歌手：张震岳/mc
hotdog/侯 专辑：ok

就让这首歌
今夜一直重复
我们都没错
只是看清楚
原来不懂的事
没有什么好说
现在先不要说
就让我们沉默
最后的拥抱
爱情的终点
回忆一触即发如何忍住眼泪
不让她哭唏哩哗啦筑就深情这样好吗
从今以后各走各的路
身上留过你的沓图
怎么可能不在乎
不怪现在只怪当初
谁辜负了谁糊涂
清醒了没越是卖醉却不醉
绕了一圈圈越想念谁
吃定了谁电影散场了没
又怎么会虎头蛇尾看你哭红又肿的双眼
一把眼泪一把鼻涕
从喜剧变成悲剧
怎么继续只好放着这首歌曲
她一直用力在听
你是我的另一个人爱这么过瘾
就像生命共同体如今却只能写下这回忆
电影散场之后你是否留下什么
一切不难再重头那感伤对画面说
这决定变得轻松夜深人静心回头
有首歌它一直
repeat repeat
是为了什么
是分手的时候就让我们自由
回忆一幕幕就像一场电影
原来一直感动
电影终要结束结束难免痛苦
心中留下伤痕
就让这首歌萦绕在耳边
我尝试刻画着每一次
曾经快乐的每一日
这首歌要播几次有太多的舍不得事
歌词像针在刺旋律让眼眶湿
曾几何时开始静止打不开的画夹
从你哝我哝的梦到现在你懂我懂的沉默
所有的痛就让时间来破
电影散场之后就在那回首处
你别走回头路
我只能头也不回地藏住感触
少了骗人的拼图怎么拼得出那版图
我真心为你祝福
有没有那么一首歌会让你很想念
有没有那么一首歌你会假装听不见
听了又掉眼泪却按不下停止键
多少的夜就这样开着灯到另一个夜
我们之间有多少故事在这首歌的里面
人不在就让这首歌在回忆也还在
就让这一首歌今夜一直重复
我们都没错只是看清楚原来不懂的事
哦没有什么好说现在先不要说
就让我们沉默
最后的拥抱爱情的终点

http://albums.stmc.edu.hk/…itten/mylove.mp3

Christine Glass - My love will get you home 
   
If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
Get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
   
If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
Get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home. 
 
If you ever feel ashame, my love will get you home.
If its only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
Get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

如果你流浪 走得太遠 我的愛能把你帶回家
如果你跟了一顆錯的星星而行 我的愛能把你帶回家
如果你發現自己迷失了 正感到孤單
請你回過神來想想我 因為我的愛會把你帶回家
男孩 我的愛能把你帶回家

如果明亮的光線使你雙眼再也看不見 我的愛能把你帶回家
如果你的煩惱阻礙你邁大步走 我的愛能把你帶回家
如果你發現自己迷失了 正感到孤單
請你回過神來想想我 因為我的愛會把你帶回家
男孩 我的愛能把你帶回家

如果你覺得羞愧 我的愛會把你帶回家
如果只有你應被責怪 我的愛會把你帶回家
如果你發現自己迷失了 正感到孤單
請你回過神來想想我 因為我的愛會把你帶回家
男孩 我的愛能把你帶回家

Everyday we meet new peoples, some of them can be close friends, some of them “Hi, Bye” friends and some of them just forgot you the next few seconds after intro. I love meeting new peoples, having new friends, listen to their happiness, achievement and experience. But I more care about my old friends, because they contain “thankful, sad and happy memories, sharing and learning, understanding and respect” which new friends yet to have or built. It takes many years to build up “old friend” but it took just a few second to destroy it.

Don’t think that because I always tell stupid jokes, do funny things, like a joker all the time then make you all think that I’m a person who don’t do things seriously, didn’t take relationship seriously or not mature. Then you are wrong I remember that when I was young I got a lot of friends but sadly to say that I do not have any true friend (friend I can trust) because I do not know how to accept others differences. How to respect others I simply throw my temper when I’m not happy, I did not know and did not care about what is forgive, what is gentleman, what is sporting. With this attitude I create a lot of enemies and I hurt a lot of people who treat me as a true friend and also feel sad when I need a true friend to share my sadness but I can’t find any.

When go to college, university and work I get to know more and more friends and I can proudly say that all of them are my true friends. Because they teach me how to be a true friend, when I’m down, sad or angry they always there for me they give advise what should I do what I shouldn’t, when I’m happy they always there laugh together with me. From what I learn during these years is there are so many different type of person around us. We can’t make them the person who you want them to and you can’t afford to waste energy on a person who’s never going to come around to your way of thinking. We have to respect and accept others differences and agenda if we can’t then just walk away else we might get dragged into an ugly situation that will leave everyone involved feeling bad.

Misunderstanding only happen when you cannot accept others thinking, style or you already don’t like that person quite sometimes so you act before you understand the full picture when something happen and the most important is because of that person face also (a lot of people say every time see my face also feel like want to beat me up HAHA… woii I really that yong sui meh?). So Misunderstanding to me is just ridiculous. Please remember that whatever things happen, it happens for a reason.

We are adults already we have to be responsible on what we have done or what we have said. You can’t take it back after you did, I can forgive but I can’t forget because is over my bottom line and after this happen it won’t be the same anymore. Yes I agreed that I’m stubborn but this is who I am. I love my friends I cherish friendship. You all can tease me, make fun of me and I’m ok with it and thank god that you all will never too much and know when to stop it (you all seem to know how to read my face har?). This is what I call true friends lah and of cause you all are smart “old” boys and “old” girls Muahaha

I call myself a sleeping Volcano, for me everyone deserves a second chance or maybe more and yes there is always a bottom line as long as you don’t cross it. Most of you have seen me throw temper before and that’s scary and I know I look very ugly when I’m angry (not angry also didn’t feel I look handsome or good looking too lah! I know you all think this way one so better I say it out before you all shot me Blek!! :P).

Is really sad to lose a 8 years friendship but at least I’ve tried my best to avoid this to happen earlier before this but like I say “the moment he shout at me our friendship end there.” Aikss you all sure curse and say walau still kid meh “still friend and no friend” HAHA but hmmm this is who I am lor and I stand firm once the decision is make Yes I may regret after sometimes but hmmm…. no one is perfect right, and Yes I’m not perfect too because I’m stubborn and not sporting, Geram leh feel like hit me?? HAHAHA…. But seriously I feel that this is the best I can do: ) at least I draw a line there so I won’t scare accidentally say something and make him angry again. Maybe we will be friend again when the day he learns how to respect me and accept who I am.

I was so piss off last night as one of my “best friend” Shout
and throw his temper at me during our gathering which really ruins my mood. This
is a Gathering we all are looking forward to reunion as most of them purposely
come to pg from SP,
Ipoh, Taiping and KL. Seriously I don’t know
what happen to him but this is not the 1st time he piss me off.

I “retreat” every time he make me uncomfortable because i do
not wish to lose a 8 years friend and yes I did ask him before why every time he
seem like want to find fault with me and the way he talk to be like got “bone”
in his words. What have I done to him, the reason he told me is because i like
to lie and fool people and he is so stupid enough to trust me since he is a
“serious” type of person. Did I cheat on his money?? Did I gain any profit from
him?? NO! NOTHING! Since the days you all know me, you all already know I like
to joke and make fun. This is why you all call me Hotliar right? What is his
problem??

I really feel fed up and disappointed after he told me this.
I started to avoid getting closer with him, since I know I will make him angry
and he will make me piss off. But Yesterday is really over my bottom line and I
really thinking of fight back and say “Hey u fuck off” because he is too
much!!!!!!

Like always they tease me about being single, then his gf
was saying “oh actually being single is not bad mah” after hear this I replied
and said “oh really then when you going to join me being single life?” Then
this so call friend just throws his temper to me and says “WHAT THE FXXX YOU
SAYING @##@+#!!” then I just smile and reply “since single so good mah join my
“single club” lah” and he turn his face like wanted to eat me……. Then shout at
me!!!

He is such no manners I tell you, I really feel insult and
damn angry because u guys can joke of me and I can’t? yet I have to get scold
by him? Who the hell he think he is? I owe him money? I owe him life? I hate
people yell at me because this is damn fucking rude!! I got 2 choices during that
time 1^st I walk over scold him back and beat him up. 2^nd
keep my mouth shut as I do not wish to spoil others mood since most of them
are “visitors”.

Since I do not want to turn this gathering to ugly, I choose
to keep my fucking mouth shut. I can’t afford to waste more energy on this
person. Is too much! There’s nothing left to debate — it’s time to agree or
disagree. Friendship take years to build up and it take seconds to destroy it.
Yes agreed that everyone has their own emotional. But throwing temper to others
when you are in bad mood is damn fucking no manners and rude. You know what?
the moment you shout at me our friendship end there. Yes I agreed that I’m not
considering as your “best friend” But I don’t deserve to be shout by you as I
don’t owe you anything please remember this. If you think you can’t accept me
as whom I am then please fuck off.