A letter from my heart
Saturday, September 15th, 2007To My Dearest family members and friends,
I believed many of you will think that I will like someone else and falling in love very soon after I break off. I also know that you all are now starting to worry and concern that will I get a GF as until now I am still single, still alone, still lonely. Hmm I bet some of you might even wonder is it I still can’t let go of her? Is it I’m still waiting for miracle to happen? Or even worst I don’t want to fall in love anymore or don’t like girls already. HAHAHA Don’t worry wor I won’t be gay and I won’t be monk and I’m cool to live without her.
Come on I’m just be single for less than 6 months, we all know she has a new bf already doesn’t mean I have to have a new gf also as this is not a competition….. even she is going to marry tomorrow doesn’t mean I have to marry a person by today. Hmm what happen if she really going to marry soon… aiks I think I have to quickly go to Vietnam or China to order a wife 1st….. wakaka I’m just kidding lah 
Yes I know that learn to forget the people in the past but thank them for hurting you, which will led you to love the people you will have in future. But the thing is you all don’t expect me just to simply find someone and be with them kwah….. But just like one of my friend’s “gentle reminder”
“Hey you think you just want a gf then you will got the “pun su” (capability/talent/skill) to get a gf already meh?”
Ouch…. Doesn’t sound like a word come out from a friend right? But this really comes out from one of my best friend. No one will know the answer is true or false, but I can’t just simply go and find one girl and prove to this friend saying I still got the “pun su” to get a gf. Maybe some of you hmm even I have over estimate my capability. When I’m young is true that I am easy to fall in love over and over again. But things changed when I am getting older oops let’s don’t use old….. We use mature sound nicer and better haha.
This is because when I grow mature I need to think or handle things in more “adult’s way”. To love a person is not only need to be caring, understanding and romantic as this is not enough because you still need to have the “spend power” as well. Who don’t want to have a rich bf? I also want to be rich so I can be more perfect : ) . Ya I know life doesn’t need to be perfect and doesn’t need to be rich. As there are a lot of people who are not rich but still live happily and lovely… well what I can say is, they are just lucky or just like what my friend remind me that “me boh pun su(I am no talent)” to have lor.
Forgot who told me that when “love” knocks at your door go open it. But most the time “love” enters through the back door and before you begin to notice it, it’s on it’s way out. But sometimes even you notice it but how do you know that it is going to stay with you till last….. since my previous relationship prove that I’m not qualify to be a good bf. Hmm I really start to worry myself too haha ever since I lost her I lost my confident. I was struggling to find my confident inside the well already and yet this friend throw me the rock written (you boh pun su). Make me drown faster nia….
Many of you are lucky just because you get to be with the person you love, I didn’t jealous or envy you all and ever since I break off I never beg for you all to pity me. I know that sometimes you all can’t stand with my joke or my ego but can I just beg that don’t take away my little piece of pride that I left just because I’m not as lucky as you all? Please? Thank you
Just to be frank I seriously feel hurt and depress when I know the one I love is currently happy with somebody else but think again it, I will be more hurt if I know she is not happy with him. Sound Funny har? Am I stupid? Am I weird? Am I crazy?
Actually I’m not worry of loving someone…. But I more worry of getting someone to love me… So you all don’t worry and don’t give me a pressure to find a gf ok. Because love is like flies…. Oopss ok lah flies sound so dirty then we use butterflies lor. Because love is like butterflies is always hard to catch, but when you have no intention to go catch them. They will just fly to you….. hehe Happy Single Day to me and to all the unlucky person. Cheers
