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I find myself so depress in the last few days. Especially times are counting down to 2008. In 2007 I didn’t seem to achieve anything….. Yet I lost a lot of things including the people I loved and care. Time can be a good medicine to cure your pain but it can turn to poison as well (if you take for granted). Losing her is the pain and the shame of my life. I need to do something to make myself numb and shameless. I know it won’t happen but at least I can try to find a way to put them somewhere inside my Stomach and shit them out.
   
But every time people keep telling me that I’m still sad or ask me if I’m still sad. They just make me think of the pain and the shame again then I will really feel sad again so STOP ask me if I’m still sad….. just like Jessica told me. “If people keep telling you Jusco got sales, even Jusco no sales you also think got sales and go buy”.
   
Never thought that I actually lost her like that and also didn’t think that I will be alone for this long. Just like my mom keep nagging me “all your girls’ friends is just friends then which one is your GF?” But she never knows that her son is just a loser, a useless guy. A guy that lost his girl to another guy, a guy that dare not to express his love to the girl he think he might likes, a guy that still single in his late 27th (turning to 28th).
   
I think is easier for me to fall in love to someone but is hard for me to tell the person I wanted to be with her after my last failure relationship. Wonder if is because I scare to lose another one I love or I just think I’m not good enough to be with her. My friend actually shares with me about this “When a relationship start it will be just need 1-10% and then it will grow to 100% after together. If can’t grow to 100% then only break off. So if you wanted to wait till 100% only start the relationship then it won’t happen.” Maybe I think and care too much, should I start to look for the other half now? But I seriously enjoy my single life now…. Sigh me myself also don’t know what I actually want. Or maybe should I be really rich 1st then only allow to have a GF.
   
90% of the rich people are because their parents are rich. 9% of the rich people are because they do not have any family commitment or the family allows them to take the risk so they become rich. 0.9% of the rich people are because they are lucky and got the chance in the right time. 0.1 % of the rich people are because they won lottery. Seem like I only got less than 1% to be rich hahaha meaning 99% I will not have a GF lor? Oh no……..
   
When we are still student, our love is very innocent (you love me, I love you). When we start work, we want a stable income only start thinking of marry. When we got a stable income then we will think that want to buy car and buy house only marry. So we keep wait and wait till 3rd party come into our relationship and steal him/her away from us. At the end, the one who we marry to the end of the day is not the one we use to share all the sad, happy or all sort of the feeling in our past few years.
      
A message for the girls:
If he is the one you think can spend your future with, don’t wait for him to own a house, car or saving 1st then only want to marry him. As in the reality if one day he got all of them, he will have more seduce from the outside world. Sad to say that if the guy got all of this, I don’t think they still need an old girl (30s++) like you. Since he can get a better girls who are more Pretty, young and sexy girls. So by then the bride sure will not be you. So if he is the right one, even he doesn’t have house or car yet but he is very ambitious. Then he got the potential to give you a life that you won’t suffer. Even future he wan to divorce, you also can get a better $$ haha
   
A message for the guys
If you really love and care about her please don’t let her wait too long. As it will be nice to have her accompany you and fight for your career and future (be the woman behind you). Unless you have other plan, else don’t let the true love wait for too long because time can poison and grind off your truth love. I know it sound scary or you won’t believed it. But look at me; I am already the best example for you. Good luck Brothers!!
    
We tend to take things for granted after having it for a long time. But don’t let the true love wait. Tie the knot before true love fades away as times goes by, unless you don’t feel like married. Let’s forget about the unhappy 2007 if you got any. Because New Year New Hopes!! Happy New Year!!! 

http://www.esnips.com/doc/5cbcae74-1996-4a3b-9aa1-249e551562e3/周杰伦(Jay-Chou)—-彩虹(rainbow)

彩虹
作曲:周杰伦 作词:周杰伦

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

 
看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉

是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

Copy from Jessica’s Blog hope you all can learn the tips

这是英国的防身手册，我从网上抄的，有些的确很有道理。在这治安不好的国家，对像我那样的孤独女生，太有用了。

我当然希望所有人都不会派上用场，当做一个警告就好。

1. 回到家门之前准备好开门的钥匙，不要站在门口才来找钥匙。

2. 开车送朋友回家，要等朋友进了家门才好离去。(自己留在车上要锁车，和朋友约定到家要打电话给朋友，万一过了指定时间没有回复，朋友就要告诉其家人或报警。)

3. 平时身上一定要备有各金额的零钱和硬币。(打公共电话求救不是不用钱的吗？)

4. 发生不幸时，一定要镇定，记得对方的特征。

5. 女人要常备着保险套，发生不幸时要求对方使用。(这个很可悲，不过倒是真的，避免不幸患上艾滋病，性病或怀孕。不过女人戴那个，有点怪怪的。)

6. 行车时要把车门反锁，停车熄灯熄后，留在车上稍做片刻观察再出车，把值钱的东西放在看不到的地方。

7. 皮夹内放有自己的名字和亲友的名字，电话的小卡 (这个我有点保留，非法之徒会不会有机可乘呢？要知道我们是在马来西亚不是英国。)

8. 开两个以上的银行户口，平时只放够用的零用钱的提款卡。

9. 进入电梯注意同乘者是否面露邪恶，不按楼层。尽量站在控制钮的地方一旦被攻击，立刻用手拍打每层的按钮，此时电梯会在每层停下，对外面喊失火了，不要和歹徒搏斗(这里不是很通，已经受到攻击了怎么不搏斗呢？我觉得在每层停下来，然后想尽办法逃脱，拍打那层的屋主房门，喊失火更好。)

10. 如果与人合租必须约法三章，不得随意将钥匙给其他朋友，以免出入复杂。(这个很对呢。。通常女人都是被熟人强奸)

11. 晚上出门尽量拿件外套，将皮包套住，避免被强劫。(最好什么都不带，电话和钱包都放进裤子或外套里的袋袋。)

12. 一旦发现被跟踪时，可以用脚或皮包拍打路边的停车，触发报器音响，引人注意。(这是不错的做法，唯一怕的是如果身边的车都是没有报器音响，那怎么办？所以要选些高档漂亮的车，成数高点。)

13. 搭计程车时，注意前座有没有斜靠下，以防有其他人。(我觉得上车之后要当着德士司机面前，不管假装还是真的打电话给家人或男性朋友，抄下车牌和司机姓名，尤其是晚上。虽然很尴尬，但总比生命受威好.)

14. 开车的，上车前注意周围有没有人，上车第一个动作就是锁门，以防有人突然开门而入，停车时，千万不要把家里电话写在车窗外，免得有人故意叫你移车做歹。(现在还有人这样做么?)

15. 为防假车祸，真抢劫，碰到车祸，千万不要马上出来，先冷静观察对方是否好几个人下来或来者不善，最好马上离开，同时猛按喇叭，引人注意。(这个还满对的，不过会不会算是hit and run 呢?)

16. 停车时，如果有其他车跟住，停车后不要马上出来，等对方的车走了远后才下车，以免被劫。

17. 单身到公共场所喝东西，如果没喝完就去厕所或离开打电话，之后就不要再喝了，以免中间被下药。(这个千真万确，我看过下药的人，动作很快，根本发觉不到。最好不要单独喝东西了，尤其女人。)

18. 晚归时，应该走灯光明亮的街道，或是逆向行走，    以便掌握路况，上楼时，先按铃请家人下楼接，以免    歹徒躲在楼梯间。

接下来是我的个人意见，

1. 女人一定要有手机，一定要付清账单以免打不通。还有最好有备用电池。

2. 我通常都会有附近的警局号码，因为如果我们打911，以现在公务员的速度，没有接到邻近的派出所，你已经完了，倒不如直接打给附近的派出所更有用。

3. 看到有人做歹时，不要逞强，如果你能打电话给警察，已经是帮了很大的忙。

4. 不要以为到没有人烟的地方去谈情说爱是很浪漫的事，如果遇到几个歹徒，后果不堪设想。除非你男朋友是李连杰，不然最好还是通俗点看戏吃饭算了。

5. 万一不幸单独驾车忘了锁车，被人上车抢劫，一定要镇定，不要驾入高速公路或没有人的道路。不要乱按喇叭，以免歹徒伤害你。乘歹徒不注意，在较繁忙的路上，偷偷开车锁，然后突然高速扭骀盘，在歹徒的方向撞上隔壁的车或路牌，(不要笨笨的撞向自己的方向！) 乘乱下车求救。

6. 如果自己是坐在乘客座，一定想办法发生车祸，然后 乘乱下车求救。

7. 遇到歹徒企图步近，后退到最近的逃生处，大声喝止歹徒，并且舞动身边有的武器，务必让歹徒觉得你是不好惹的。如果歹徒还是步近，把身上值钱的东西除了手机丢向歹徒，记住是丢向他，而不是丢去他拿不到的地方，因为这样会触怒他攻击你。

8. 手机是救命的东西，不到最后不要丢。如果想躲起来，不让歹徒发现，记得要关机。

9. 凡是女人记得要三五成群，无论你是多丑，多胖，多老，都是歹徒的理想对象。

10. 万一遇上劫色，在没有办法下，可以扣喉呕吐，这样可以减低歹徒的兴趣。

11. 尽量拖延时间，和歹徒淡话，尝试让歹徒失去兴趣。

12. 不高喊自己有艾滋病，万一歹徒也有怎么办？

13. 记得女人力气不如男人，我们要善用身边的武器，石头之类的。我们最有力的地方是双腿，和手肘 , 男人最弱的地方是双眼，喉咙和下阴。要用劲一击既中，然后逃跑。不要去关他还有没有气息。

14. 最后女生还是不要穿裙子吧。

Once upon a time, there is a Crow that is in love with a Pigeon. They live happily for the past few years. The Crow always tries to give the best he can to make the Pigeon happy. The naive’s Crow believed that they can be together forever and having little Pigeon and little Crow.
 
One day, the Pigeon met the male Pigeon. The Pigeon decide to fly away with this male Pigeon and leaving the heart break Crow yelling “arg! arg! arg! arg!……..”

After letting the Pigeon flew away with her same kind to live a new life, the lonely Crow decide to stay in the nest to wait for the miracle and hoping one day the Pigeon will back with him again. Since this is not a fairly tales so this don’t have any happy ending.
 
The lonely Crow is glad that he has a lot of friends who always cheers him up and most important is introduce him all the single and available birds. After so many months the lonely Crow decides to leave the nest and start to find his new nest.
 
Among the birds that he knows, he is only attract by this high-class’ Eagle. As we all know Eagle is the very fierce bird. But due to her beautiful, friendly and outstanding appearance, she still manages to attract all the birds’ attention.  The Crow started to going out with this special one, and started to have this “funny” feeling. The Crow didn’t want to take any action, because he knows that if the Eagle find out he like her, she will sure tear his skin and kill him. In the same time, he also worries that the Eagle might accept other birds. With this mixture feeling, he decides to act like nobody business just to keep him safe. But he will always be there for the Eagle whenever she needs help.
 
Beside the Eagle, there is a cute Squirrel. She is so cute and adorable. The Crow actually like this cute Squirrel too, because she always so understanding and so nice to the Crow. Although the Crow can feel that this cute Squirrel actually likes him. But he just not ready to go into the love yet. (Is he actually not ready to go into the love yet or he do not know that if he actually love her)
 
After reading this stupid Bird’s story, I would like to ask you all that should we with the one we love most (know that we will sure hurt by this fierce Eagle if we be with her) or be with the one who love us most. (although knowing that cute Squirrel will be treating Crow nicely but… Crow and Squirrel are still different kind of species right). Or should the Crow try to look for peacock, ostrich, hens, or other birds. HAHA

PS: The story above is just from imagination, if you find this similar to some people’s story. Well what I can say is this is just happen coincidence